this morning i accidently took tylenol allergy nighttime and as i wrote m it has been an absolute battle with my eyelids. i thought after four hours it'd go but it hasn't and my throat is scratchy and my nose runny and sometimes i am completely frustrated at this typing out of little puddles meaning nothing when really i want to write something about how beautiful m is to me and how i can't wait to see his smile round my evening door and lolling about a sunshine morning bed, but no words add up to what it really means.