in other words i'm sort of starting to hate this blog.
it feels so vain and so... commercial? writing these
entries of look at my stuff! come see my stuff! you
can buy my stuff! i'm tired of always sitting to write
about stuff and focusing all my attention on this
stuff and losing these other things i used to love
so much because i want you to buy this stuff!
i need some sort of refocus, some sort of stepping
back and starting over. this isn't the space i want
it to be and i'm sure it doesn't really matter much
as just another blog in the list of blogs but every
time i sit to write another entry i feel silly and tired
and just more noise amongst the chaos. i don't
want to always be an advertisement or a wardrobe.