today i actually started out in a grungy t-shirt and shorts combo since m and i have taken up doing yardwork for extra money. today was really my first day going with him and it was hard work and it's horribly hot out, but when we were done and he asked me if i wished i was still behind the desk working at the library instead - i think i surprised him by saying no i preferred this. i hated office work and petty office things and menial tasks and even though i probably screwed myself financially by giving up that career - i really haven't regretted leaving. at least today when we were done there was a sense of accomplishment and i could see the results of my efforts along with a few physical benifits, too. just wish i had realized that at some point before deciding to waste all that money and debt on a masters degree.